Happy

"You're never happy,"
You point out to me.
But happy?
Why should I be?

When life has been nothing 
But betrayal and pain,
Happiness?
That's something I could not gain.

Long nights while others sleep,
The memories I relive
Happy?
No. Just trying to forgive.

To wake up screaming,
Feeling like you're pinned down
Happiness?
Not in those sounds.

"You're never happy,"
You point out to me.
But happy?
Why should I be?

When the horrors haunt you
Till you can't breathe
Happiness?
Is not something I believe.

Long days of cheery people
Who don't understand
Happy?
Not till I reach the Promised Land.

To try to explain
To those who don't know.
Happiness?
I'll never show.

"You're never happy,"
You point out to me.
But happy?
Why should I be?

Be raped, be abandoned,
lied to and used.
Be afraid, be alone, and
Then tell me,
Are you happy?

"You're never happy,"
You naively point out to me.
But happy?
Well, would you be?